Muse.

She is fried bacon
my ceramic membrane cannot escape
She is sickly desire
and I cannot part
memories of ocean side
bubble baths
and the best New Year's Eve
I've ever had
: steam punk cigarettes
and perfect crimson heels
I can never wear again

She infects finely groomed nails
the dripping muse I can only capture
in dreams

The haiku master told me
in her final breathing sonnet:

heartbreak
open door
a writer's heart

and then she told me it was not a haiku
only an observation
as the bourbon rocks crashed from her hand

I was wild
unbridled
unbroken
gouging my flesh
on thickets of Himalayan Blackberry.
Blood pooled my toes
filling cracks with cakes deep and red
I only wanted to fly
Each attempt I lost one:

one respect
one humility
one mystery
then respect again

And my muse remained
quizzical
crinkled between the eyes
soothing fevers in my sleep
applying lye to open wounds
dipping fluoride to my water hole.
She tried to save me
soothe me
give me just a little bit more-
She lost herself.

Her ceramic membrane could not escape
the sick intoxication
fried bacon stuck in her vegan grooves
my blood drowning her body
night after night after-

I cannot escape my muse
fire in a broken heart
we've found it once again.

Archive: February 9, 2011- Equal Rights

I walked into a supernova
I expected inspiration
but- damn; a supernova

I became the girl with wild lips
the one I used to know
on the peninsula beach
screaming slipping syllables
down her succulent face

I became brazen, offensive,
even honest.
Oh so honest.
Age has made me her.
Honest
Offensive
Brazen
I fought for irony
and threw up sarcasm in your hurricane breakfast.

I was once again for a fleeting glimpse
your horse child
I was the daughter of Brautigan
and the lips that kissed the lips of Ginsberg
I was Kate Crowes fitful infant
but only for a glimpse.

Shut your eyes
and I will break the silence
ruin the mood
and rebut every cleaver line you own.

I've returned your rightful winnings with-
I don't like you, but I respect you
You deserve to win
but I deserve to compete
I hope this is what you were looking for.